Thoughts? Hahahhaha. I dont really have much thoughts right now honestly.
Maybe scared and anxious for the upcoming 2013 and my results?
Losing faith in myself as i look at the cut off points for polytechnics.
The points keep getting smaller/lower I'm starting to doubt my ability of even being able to make it.
Will I retain? I don't want to think about that for now, but my mind just keeps going there?
I'm starting to doubt everyone, not just myself.
Looking at the changing tlist right now I'm just speechless at how so many people I used to be close to have turned into people who are arrogant, proud and not many have stayed the same. Is this why everyone is moving? No doubt people change but they've changed so much when I met them during Smtown they are totally different? People who used to say hi with such friendliness turned into cold machines?
Actually, I think I'm quite okay with people doubting me, or me doubting myself. This isn't the first time. Why can't I be more confident? I really don't know. Maybe it's because my parents doubt me and my ability. Well, what ability do I actually have that is outstanding? The answer is none.
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On a lighter note, I'll be starting to write the jar of notes! Got the idea from tumblr. Gonna start it on new year's day. I'll have to make it a habbit to find one thing I'm happy about for each day, and hopefully, I'll have 365 small slips of paper to read by the end of 2013, and see what can be done differently ^__^
This is so unlike my usual self. Haha.
If I do make it my choices would be arts and business architecture banking finance public relations. So I'm praying right now, I get 13 and below. Hopefully I will.
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